Hey guys

I just wanted to apologize for not coming on a lot anymore.

I think just after this summer, I've been pushing away from everyone. I feel like I've lost it in a sense of mental control. I can't handle things anymore. I'm becoming more introvert every single day. I keep pushing away everyone...you guys, my friends at school...almost everybody.
Like I remember over the summer when you guys would be like, "Come chat with us!" I just didn't have the mental energy to do so. Not like I didn't want to (I love you all), but you know? It's the feeling when you just don't want to talk. Don't want to speak or anything, if you get what I mean.

I've been busy with school and other shit too. I can't even stay up past 9 anymore on weekdays. Weekends I just want to sleep. I'm mentally and physically drained. It sucks. And since I'm trying to get good-ass grades, it's time consuming.

I may not be on here much, I may not be on anywhere much, but that doesn't mean I don't care. I want you guys to know that I'm always here for you guys. I've missed out on so much, like I seriously need to catch up with you guys and see what's been happening in your guys' lives. I miss you all like crazy.

Sorry for the long post, but it was on my mind.