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by Mikal 6/27/2012, 10:20 am'Control' by Mikal
ohai. i wrote like 40 some songs for this album and had to narrow it down this much 0_0 plz enjoy
i worked rly hard and hope you loves it :blue:
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Do you believe love and art can coincide with each other?
They may very well be able to but one seems to lack or give in as time goes on.
You have to fully dedicate yourself to art.
You have to fully dedicate yourself to love.
Can a person only give half of their support to one?
But what is the difference between friendship love and relationship love?
What makes them so different that one is such a duty while the other comes so naturally?
Is it society's preconceived notions that one cannot be "complete" without a significant other?
Is it the difference of sexual arousal?
Perhaps this is a certain reason that freedom is so ingenious.
It gives way to a lot of creativity that was bottled up.
You can treat your art like a love interest, but you can't treat your love like a sculpture.
You have to take them for what they are, and that is part of the failure.
What do you want control of?
LE FIN.
ohai. i wrote like 40 some songs for this album and had to narrow it down this much 0_0 plz enjoy
i worked rly hard and hope you loves it :blue: - 1. New Order (Kings & Queens):
gurl this song is about wanting to break tradition and wanting to make a difference for da better with your friends
Verse:
give an order for me to break
make me hate what used to be right
give a struggle for me to take
make me want to give up the fight
i don't want to care anymore
just strike me down forever now
i need what i want if it's more
you've done your job, i don't know how
Chorus:
make me see what's forever to tell
i'm coming close to hearing church bells
floating above a ring of fire
we could go up higher and higher
just a bunch of kings and queens
never easy as it seems
just a bunch of kings and queens
building a kingdom on seams
Verse:
i've done my own part in the start of this war
i said it's not an art to complain for more
take what you have if you're done with my offers
regret everything that you changed so sorely
used to make me feel damned
that i'm not what i really am
dying in a storm of bad
it's terrible losing what you lovingly had
Chorus:
make me see what's forever to tell
i'm coming close to hearing church bells
floating above a ring of fire
we could go up higher and higher
just a bunch of kings and queens
never easy as it seems
just a bunch of kings and queens
building a kingdom on seams
Bridge:
we are the kings and we are the queens
so much power's been flowing through me
you say you don't like that it's not fair to seem?
nobody's on your side and you'll stay lonely
if it makes you feel right
then baby it's alright
if you can go all night
then baby it's your right
Chorus:
make me see what's forever to tell
i'm coming close to hearing church bells
floating above a ring of fire
we could go up higher and higher
just a bunch of kings and queens
never easy as it seems
just a bunch of kings and queens
building a kingdom on seams
- 2. Devil's Hate:
this about anything bad in life that makes you feel fucking horrible and like everyone in the universe is out to get you
Verse:
i'm so closed to the world
and i'll never know what it is to love
because the devil's hate won't wait
and the devil's hate won't break
you'll give and take
and you'll ache for heartbreak
you'll change and you'll turn
but you'll never learn
Chorus:
the devil, the devil, the devil he's coming
to take you and hate you and leave you dumbfounded
he'll take you and break you and leave you all to die
he said it's never right with an eye for an eye
i said it's never right
baby it's never right
honey it's never right
with an eye for an eye
Verse:
don't give damns to earn it
we'll never know end till we deserve it
because the devil's hate isn't fake
and the devil's hate is never fair game
you'll give and take
and you'll ache for heartbreak
you'll change and you'll turn
but you'll never learn
Chorus:
the devil, the devil, the devil he's coming
to take you and hate you and leave you dumbfounded
he'll take you and break you and leave you all to die
he said it's never right with an eye for an eye
i said it's never right
baby it's never right
honey it's never right
with an eye for an eye
Bridge:
i'm just the ring bearer
giving young love hope
till it crashes down in terror
killing us with chokes
it could be sexual
could be sensual
it could be wonderful
but now we're hung on hope
Chorus:
the devil, the devil, the devil he's coming
to take you and hate you and leave you dumbfounded
he'll take you and break you and leave you all to die
he said it's never right with an eye for an eye
i said it's never right
baby it's never right
honey it's never right
with an eye for an eye
- 3. Enemies:
this is about back stabbing bitches that fuck up your life and can go rot in hell for all of eternity
Verse:
enemies will strike you bold
take your gold and leave you cold
if you don't have the power or will to fight back
you only hide away masked
if i act a little weak
would it be too much to see?
so much hate and many tears
fighting back my fears, my fears
Chorus:
if you protect only what you love
if you do nothing and get a lot
i'm shocked at life and even more at love
keep me forever waiting for above
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're not for me
Verse:
no matter if you're fair to heaven
and it doesn't matter what's within
get by and wait the funeral out
you'll come to life and really come out
if i gave in to the power
would it only become louder?
there's so much wrong with the world
don't fight back do what you're told
Chorus:
if you protect only what you love
if you do nothing and get a lot
i'm shocked at life and even more at love
keep me forever waiting for above
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're not for me
Bridge:
sweet and slick and yet so unfair
i'm hiding from their burnt out fear
you can't judge me for my defense
and the only life to live with men
i said it and i wouldn't take it back
yes i'm right it's too much for them
just stay weak and stay alone
instead of strong and locked up at home
Chorus:
if you protect only what you love
if you do nothing and get a lot
i'm shocked at life and even more at love
keep me forever waiting for above
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're enemies
they're not for me
- 4. My Dark Future:
this is about your future life pretty much. you feel and know that it won't be good and don't know how you want to get out of it
Verse:
i have nothing to build
i have nothing to win
i never wanted to see
a failure that falls on me
i'm stuck in a black hole
there's never a way out
someone help me find the light
won't find any love in sight
Chorus:
i've got a dark future waiting for me
i can't explain what it's meaning to be
live for me and i'll live for you
i only want to send you through
i've got a dark place and it's waiting for me
even with a good life it's coming to be
nobody thinks they're ready until end meets
go beyond the lies and scars if you're ready
dark future, dark future
i'm waiting to see
my future, my future
it's coming for me
Verse:
baby i don't need it anymore
i don't need a love for life
i only need somebody
just to help me move on right
i'm sure it's never gonna happen
and it's not a deal to spare
for my life it's so much better
and baby i'm enough to wear
Chorus:
i've got a dark future waiting for me
i can't explain what it's meaning to be
live for me and i'll live for you
i only want to send you through
i've got a dark place and it's waiting for me
even with a good life it's coming to be
nobody thinks they're ready until end meets
go beyond the lies and scars if you're ready
dark future, dark future
i'm waiting to see
my future, my future
it's coming for me
Bridge:
i'm my own evil, take me now
and slit my skin till i'm crying
starve me and you can raise a toast
until you take what matters most
don't end a life, start a new one
make a real star to burst the sun
when life itself seems all a dream
when nothing's what it really seems
Chorus:
i've got a dark future waiting for me
i can't explain what it's meaning to be
live for me and i'll live for you
i only want to send you through
i've got a dark place and it's waiting for me
even with a good life it's coming to be
nobody thinks they're ready until end meets
go beyond the lies and scars if you're ready
dark future, dark future
i'm waiting to see
my future, my future
it's coming for me
- 5. The Spirit Of A Feather:
this is about how i really feel inside. a gentle piece of fuck
Verse:
with the persistence of a diamond
and indulgence of a child
i've got the spirit of a feather
and the arousal of tight leather
oh yes i am aware of myself
i bet that has you scared
that you can't figure yourself out
life feels bare and so does care
Chorus:
with the spirit of a feather
i'm on the edge of falling
i'm only here to please
and i'm ready for my calling
if only someone's here to burn
i'm never sure how to turn
light on the atmosphere
cuz i'm never sure what to learn
you can only break my spirit of a feather
you can never argue what's better
you can only break my spirit of a feather
but save the rest to write my will of a letter
Verse:
i've got a passion for the future
and i'm waiting waiting now
i'm more than just ready to be free
and to show everybody how
at least that's what i thought
baby it's turning out too bad
it can't ruin my thoughts
but it just makes me feel sad
Chorus:
with the spirit of a feather
i'm on the edge of falling
i'm only here to please
and i'm ready for my calling
if only someone's here to burn
i'm never sure how to turn
light on the atmosphere
cuz i'm never sure what to learn
you can only break my spirit of a feather
you can never argue what's better
you can only break my spirit of a feather
but save the rest to write my will of a letter
Bridge:
watch that precious body walk
see that love turn into talk
don't realise reality or give up the fake
keep it together so you'll never ever break
i don't remember dreams
and fantasy is what that means
maybe if i had sleep
i'd get enough to keep a dream
Chorus:
with the spirit of a feather
i'm on the edge of falling
i'm only here to please
and i'm ready for my calling
if only someone's here to burn
i'm never sure how to turn
light on the atmosphere
cuz i'm never sure what to learn
you can only break my spirit of a feather
you can never argue what's better
you can only break my spirit of a feather
but save the rest to write my will of a letter
- 6. I'm Dirty:
this is about when it seems that you've "messed up" or "pissed someone off" and you don't care cuz it's your life and you can either live your life in fear of fucking up. or fucking up and embracing it i don't give a a a a a
Verse:
i only wanted to hurt you
then just lived on to be cupid
yet always fight on your grave
and even now i'll be brave
i only think i'm enough
if you believe my cries or my sake
hey i don't care to be right again
just let me break your laws and your godforsaken boss
Chorus:
i just feel so dirty
now that i know you've heard me
everything's so dirty
cuz my truest feelings that i never thought could hurt me
i just feel so dirty
i'll live alone till 30
no one else can desert me
cuz now that i'm dirty
so dirty
so dirty
so dirty
i'm dirty
Verse:
check out this bloody evil coffin
making me demented and rise to be rotten
but if it takes the pain away
in the ground you'll be safe
keep sucking my soul away
draining my blood till i wake
you can try and try to break
but i'm still fighting from the grave
Chorus:
i just feel so dirty
now that i know you've heard me
everything's so dirty
cuz my truest feelings that i never thought could hurt me
i just feel so dirty
i'll live alone till 30
no one else can desert me
cuz now that i'm dirty
so dirty
so dirty
so dirty
i'm dirty
Bridge:
it's so dirty what i've done
yes i feel so unforgiven
but i've been taught a lesson
baby i'll never ever forget
don't let go of the past
if you want things to last
don't let go of the past
honey you'll only get wrath
Chorus:
i just feel so dirty
now that i know you've heard me
everything's so dirty
cuz my truest feelings that i never thought could hurt me
i just feel so dirty
i'll live alone till 30
no one else can desert me
cuz now that i'm dirty
so dirty
so dirty
so dirty
i'm dirty
- 7. All My Demons:
this is about letting everything go and fall apart. and it's about opening up to people and breaking down, it's sort of a shift change in the whole album
Verse:
if i feared being alive
would it hurt to die?
if i took pleasure and love
would it be too tough?
i'm sitting in hell
waiting to be released
i've got impatient fever
and not enough money
Chorus:
little devils to scare you all
poison my brain to attack the world
they build up a journey to make a great fall
but i wish you didn't know they're real at all
all my demons
all my feeling
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
all my heartache
all my crying
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
Verse:
if i could stop it all now
i know that i would
but i can't hold back
for what used to be good
it seems life is a curse
and it makes up the worst
all the troubles and problems
they need nothing to solve them
Chorus:
little devils to scare you all
poison my brain to attack the world
they build up a journey to make a great fall
but i wish you didn't know they're real at all
all my demons
all my feeling
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
all my heartache
all my crying
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
Bridge:
all my demons drain upon me
everything i ever kept secret is running
help can be scary and sometimes unreal
sometimes it's better to not even feel
there isn't a guide to life when that's what we really need
no batteries for souls who feel close to a bleed
it's what i feel and i'm drowning in facts
i feel that nobody knows how to act
i know how to help you but i need to help me
but maybe help isn't really what i need
perhaps there's nothing that can be done
everybody's fucked in the brain, is that right son?
Chorus:
little devils to scare you all
poison my brain to attack the world
they build up a journey to make a great fall
but i wish you didn't know they're real at all
all my demons
all my feeling
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
all my heartache
all my crying
coming out tonight
whether it's wrong or right
- 8. Ugly:
this was inspired by some lyrics of Marina "yeah you may be good looking but you're not a piece of art".
Verse:
you had a heart that turned to stone
we had a fling that failed on its own
and now i worry why i thought
that you were ever good enough
i can't go back on my word
but i can still wonder why
my heart seems to abuse my eyes
but i keep avoiding the lies
Chorus:
things became so ugly
the day my heart stopped beating
my body felt like defeating
the way i interpret life now is releasing, releasing
just a tortured soul
and i'm searching for the world
i'm just a tortured soul
searching for the world world world
Verse:
it shouldn't mattet what you think
it only matters if i'm happy
but i'm not and that's enough
to give you power in terms of thought
i know very well my intentions are fair
not hypocritical and never too scared
if i'm seeing a light i've gotta follow
leading in my dreams that turn out to be hollow
Chorus:
things became so ugly
the day my heart stopped beating
my body felt like defeating
the way i interpret life now is releasing, releasing
just a tortured soul
and i'm searching for the world
i'm just a tortured soul
searching for the world world world
Bridge:
if i feel that you're wrong
i've been wrong all along
it hurts to turn my back
but there's nothing i can do than watch
Chorus:
things became so ugly
the day my heart stopped beating
my body felt like defeating
the way i interpret life now is releasing, releasing
just a tortured soul
and i'm searching for the world
i'm just a tortured soul
searching for the world world world
- 9. Get Sexual:
this is a song about being a whore to replace love but not rly tho and about hating yourself
Verse:
a little sexuality never hurt anyone
c'mon boy and be that one
undress me and fill me up
run your mouth
turn off the lights i don't want you to see
i'm scared of you almost as much as me
you can't touch me at all
i'm about to fall
Chorus:
i'm so sexual, but baby i'm skeptical
i'm so sexual, so sexual
this kind of love isn't forever
i wanna feel all your pleasures
it's gonna feel so much better
don't hold me close unless i'm close
get sexual
not sensual
Verse:
turn off the screen so you don't have to see
it's a curse to be seen for what you are, mean
cover myself with your beauty and charm
babe there's never a reason to feel alarmed
don't say nobody's perfect cuz i know that you are
but if i act perfect does that make me the real star?
the eternal game of brains and brawns
but i'd still like to know what diet you're on
Chorus:
i'm so sexual, but baby i'm skeptical
i'm so sexual, so sexual
this kind of love isn't forever
i wanna feel all your pleasures
it's gonna feel so much better
don't hold me close unless i'm close
get sexual
not sensual
Bridge:
if i loved your touch so much
would you love my feel?
we're loving mouths enough
to know what's real
is it real to be loved?
is it real to have lust?
are we even alive
or just part of design?
Chorus:
i'm so sexual, but baby i'm skeptical
i'm so sexual, so sexual
this kind of love isn't forever
i wanna feel all your pleasures
it's gonna feel so much better
don't hold me close unless i'm close
get sexual
not sensual
- 10. The Choice Of Love:
Verse:
the choice of love
will bring you down
you'd think it helps
when it's really just a spell
a grave choice
full of remorse
a dangerous task
to do and to ask
Chorus:
the choice of love
will leave you dead
keep it alive
to avoid the dread
it's the secret of life
that you gotta stay strong
you have got to live on
and always stay alone
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
Verse:
you'll earn it all
and hurt a lot
when it comes down
it takes your ground
not good enough
not cared enough
ends in a split
and nasty fit
Chorus:
the choice of love
will leave you dead
keep it alive
to avoid the dread
it's the secret of life
that you gotta stay strong
you have got to live on
and always stay alone
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
Bridge:
stay away from it all
don't ever choose
when nothing is worth all the pain
if you choose to keep your sane
what's the point of love when you'll always have me?
it's a choice of hate
Chorus:
the choice of love
will leave you dead
keep it alive
to avoid the dread
it's the secret of life
that you gotta stay strong
you have got to live on
and always stay alone
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
it's the choice, the choice, the choice of love
- 11. Soulmates:
i made this song to make fun of love and mock it. instead of it being about someone else IT'S ABOUT MEEEEEEEE HAHAHAHA (6) fuck everyone else
Verse:
bam, bam baby
you're all i want
you're all i need
to make me free
make me believe
and know that this
i know that us
is anything we'll ever need
Pre-Chorus:
but we're trapped forever
forever, together
and left with a choice
do we kill or survive?
Chorus:
i'm in love with you
and i've fallen hard
scrape to the bottom of my soul
and you'll find my only tool is you
you're the only one i want
you're the only one i need
hell, you're all that i see
and i know you'll stay with me, me
Verse:
it's possibly a match made in heaven
forever and ever, living on
but with anyone else it's never better
making one and faking wrong
i expect the best from you
and fail you all the time
every lie and every fail
is worth more for every dime
Pre-Chorus:
but we're trapped forever
forever, together
and left with a choice
do we live or die?
Chorus:
i'm in love with you
and i've fallen hard
scrape to the bottom of my soul
and you'll find my only tool is you
you're the only one i want
you're the only one i need
hell, you're all that i see
and i know you'll stay with me, me
Bridge:
i finally found my soulmate
and it means more than just fate
we could be partners in crime
we could just freeze in paradise till we can't live anymore
but it means nothing without hope
and you need to soap me up, baby
i'm filthy, i'm naughty, i'm full of regret
so fix me, and clean me, and make me feel right next chance you get
Chorus:
i'm in love with you
and i've fallen hard
scrape to the bottom of my soul
and you'll find my only tool is you
you're the only one i want
you're the only one i need
hell, you're all that i see
and i know you'll stay with me, me
- 12. Hole In My Heart:
it's a song from a while ago i wrote but i made some modifications to it and it's about feeling heart broken or just sad with life
Verse:
it's a brand new day
i wanna make everyone happy
am i kidding myself?
should i be seeking help?
don't run away from me
i'd do anything to please
i don't get anything for me
just be the friend i need
Chorus:
there's a hole in my heart
it doesn't know where to start
i just wanna be loved
i just wanna be enough
and this hole in my heart
it gives for everyone
why aren't i enough?
my tears tell i'm too tough
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
could i fill it up with art?
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
where would i even start?
Verse:
i don't want war again
i'm just making friends
trying to make amends
i guess you want this to end
i'll be lonely again
i tried to be the best i am
i always want to lend a hand
you never send them back for me
Chorus:
there's a hole in my heart
it doesn't know where to start
i just wanna be loved
i just wanna be enough
and this hole in my heart
it gives for everyone
why aren't i enough?
my tears tell i'm too tough
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
could i fill it up with art?
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
where would i even start?
Bridge:
nobody will ever understand
they think they have it bad and then again
to have no life, no friends, no one
could they do it all and then end?
nobody seems enough
and we all expect too much
nobody seems enough
to fill the void of life
Chorus:
there's a hole in my heart
it doesn't know where to start
i just wanna be loved
i just wanna be enough
and this hole in my heart
it gives for everyone
why aren't i enough?
my tears tell i'm too tough
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
could i fill it up with art?
how do i fix the hole in my heart?
where would i even start?
- 13. Not Ready:
this is the lassssssst soooooooooooooooooong. lol i love how shady this one is (6) fuck you fuckers there i had to get that out of my system. i won't name any names so i'll just give clues as to who is being shaded like a classy lady
the song is about 4 people in all hahahahahaha... :3
Verse:
i'm ready, oh i'm ready
nobody in the world can be too great for me
and i'm ready, oh i'm ready
babe i couldn't ever love until i bleed
i'm ready, oh i'm ready
you could dye your hair a thousand and more times
and i'm ready, oh i'm ready
but it's never gonna ever hide your lies
i'm loved when i get sexual
but when i never love at all
i'm attacked for something i never did
that's what you can afford to say at all
Chorus:
i'm ready to go down in fame
i'm ready to take it all
not ready to do it all again
not ready to take a fall
keep thinking that you're my number one when i can't take that call
filling my void with lots of boys
that's what will take its toll
keep filling my void with empty love thats what stands me tall
Verse:
i'm ready, oh i'm ready
for the best thing that can happen to me
and i'm ready, oh i'm ready
i guess i can go on living life
i'm ready, oh i'm ready
i'm never gonna leave again
and i'm ready, oh i'm ready
i'm gonna stay even more to believe it
life's become a game
and our back's are up against the wall
i'm ready to take you down
and for once i'm standing tall
Chorus:
i'm ready to go down in fame
i'm ready to take it all
not ready to do it all again
not ready to take a fall
keep thinking that you're my number one when i can't take that call
filling my void with lots of boys
that's what will take its toll
keep filling my void with empty love thats what stands me tall
Bridge:
it's true this is just who you are
forget how far i went
this my grand love chariot
would you like to marry it?
never ever forget
take a ride you'll slip and die
carry on my chariot
love it, love it, love it, till you cry
i know you'll love it forever
baby, love it till you die
Chorus:
i'm ready to go down in fame
i'm ready to take it all
not ready to do it all again
not ready to take a fall
keep thinking that you're my number one when i can't take that call
filling my void with lots of boys
that's what will take its toll
keep filling my void with empty love thats what stands me tall
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Do you believe love and art can coincide with each other?
They may very well be able to but one seems to lack or give in as time goes on.
You have to fully dedicate yourself to art.
You have to fully dedicate yourself to love.
Can a person only give half of their support to one?
But what is the difference between friendship love and relationship love?
What makes them so different that one is such a duty while the other comes so naturally?
Is it society's preconceived notions that one cannot be "complete" without a significant other?
Is it the difference of sexual arousal?
Perhaps this is a certain reason that freedom is so ingenious.
It gives way to a lot of creativity that was bottled up.
You can treat your art like a love interest, but you can't treat your love like a sculpture.
You have to take them for what they are, and that is part of the failure.
What do you want control of?
LE FIN.
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